As a generality, I think my kids are doing fabulous since Mike and I split. But sometimes I see a glimpse of how it's affecting them....
I went out with Stace tonight (wooo, it was a LOT of fun), then watched a movie with Ash...came home late, about to climb into bed...Lance POPS up like he was never asleep, "You staying home now?"...then proceeds to go to the kids' room and brings back piece by piece--- the pile of my clothes that he had stole to sleep with in his bed.
Cuddling safely with Momma, a secure choke hold around my neck, he asked "You leave me again?"...'never ever, Bub- Momma will always come back'...."you forgot my special things"....'You have special wings?!' (rule #34 with kids: always act amazed when they tell you that they have something imaginary) ...."no, Momma"....'oh, you like spelling things???'...."NO.".....'OH! I didn't forget your special things- I'm just slow in moving us, sweetie'....."hmmhh...don't forget my glue."....and as he was drifting off to sleep he said, "MOM! Don't brush my teeth ever again, I don't like it!"...which has nothing to do with anything, but was nonetheless HILARIOUS in his sleepy stupor...
Anyways, it's times like this that tell me Lance is feeling the divorce. I know he'll be ok, but I hate having him scared or insecure in the meantime. I also can't sleep with him EVERY night....that can't be healthy....but I'm lonely, too Damnit!
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...if it makes you both feel secure and comforted for now, why not sleep with him every night?
That was the sweetest blog post ever.
I think you're right, Lia - I need to listen to my tattoo and trust myself ;P
Co- sleeping is not a bad thing. My kids come and get in bed with me when hubby is gone. Works out fine for the most part.
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